once again, i have proven myself to be an ass. i think i was rather rude during choir 2day. maybe francis liew was right. i need to eat some humble pie.
*ponders ponders ponders*

i am afraid. afraid of what i'll do and afraid that it'll affect people around me, the one(s) i love and also the impression of others towards me.
it hurts to think about myself. it hurts even more think of what i've done. i'm in pain... great pain. somehow, it doesnt really matter how the person feels but rather, how others would feel how the person felt.

Life has been good to me, but have i been good to life? i am everything a man could ever ask for. LOVE. but somehow, i take this love for granted. i have been concertrating so much on not letting anyone affect my happiness. easily enough, i can brush any hurting statements towards me away. but i havent been paying attention to statements i make.

sad sad sad

do i deserve such grace?

graciousness is recieving something that you dont deserve.
i dont deserve anything. but it is graciousness and love that has rewarded me. a prize but without a race.

self-concieted me!

kill me