my life is in a pretty big mess now. committment problems, family problems, social problems.. etc..
sigh.
i really dont wanna be in SYC because i dont feel any bond within the choir. but my mom says i cant quit because quitting is wrong and bad and not christian like bla bla. i spoke to a few of my friends around including my old principal and teachers. they all said that some things in life are just not favorable towards you and you cant force yourself to do things that u dont like to do. you will just be more unhappy towards the end.

my parents dont understand the life that i lead now. they want me home before midnight regardless. but how am i supposed to reach home before 12 when my rehearsals end at 11pm all the way at waterloo street? the only way for me to get home by 12 is by taking a cab, which they are against.

my mother is always saying things i disagree with. when i tell her i disagree, she'll say i am arguing. if i dont say anything, she'll say "cant you hear me?"... its a shitty situation. but alas, they are "always right" cuz thats what they say they are.

quote from my father: if the company you mix with makes u stay out after midnight, it isnt bad company.
sorry guys. you guys arent good company after all.

forget about it. i shant talk about it any longer.

sorry darling for not being around and available when u needed me. i shouldnt have taken the theatreworks thing. sorry for not sending you home even when u didnt want me to.. i have been a failure, after all. i love you so much.